May 2012
i think im gonna disappear for a while.
no more tumblr. no more facebook. no more twitter. no more anything. im too unstable.
something stupid about myself:
i still use my personal blog.
when really, im sure there is no point.
noone will see it.
i dunno yo.
I think, in decimals and dollars. I am the cause to all your problems. Shelter from cold.
his palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy.
there’s vomit on his sweater already, mom’s spaghetti.
he’s nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready,
to drop bombs but he keeps on forgetting,
what he wrote down the whole crowd goes so loud
he opens his mouth but the words wont come out.
Im gonna tell the story of my first cigarette. My actual first one i was way too young. Probably like 8. It wasnt a full one. Just a halfie out of my moms ash tray. But i dont count that. My actual first cigarette took place in lake chelan during my 8th grade. Memorial day weekend actually. I was super drunk, t_ying to cope eith something. I dont remember what. Probably my dad being kicked out...
but then i found everclear
Alexisonfire
My words won’t heal you now, my words wont heal. it is you who decides, it is you who decides.
soemtimes
sometimes i think about my life[[MORE]]and get sad. all the things i’ve missed out on. all the things i let become of me. all the years i spent living for other people. the things i tell myself to keep me from getting hyped up or argumentative with people i care about. its harsh. things hurt. and im overly sensitive. but then i think about other people. and i just feel sad for them. there...
About to start stressin. Fuck inventory
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What is it
To exist. Whats my legacy? Whats my purpose? I sit in a car full of smoke and coffee cups listening to music. What am i doing at this point? Have i lost myself or found who i am? I don’t know. And I’m not sure i truly want to know. This strange new thing is exciting, but what am i losing for it? Ive become scared of myself. Or maybe i always was, i was just more afraid of everything...
I was abandoned last night without a way home. stuck in the desert with only you above me..